Now let's try...

I'm feeling more pressure to get some things figured out with little Olive. I have to go back to work May 2. Luckily it is just for three weeks before summer is here, but I still feel the pressure and need to have certain things in place. 1. I've started pumping to stockpile a milk supply for Olive's caregivers while I am at work. I want there to be plenty of milk around in hopes things will be less stressful for her with me gone if she may eat and snack at her leisure. Also, I wouldn't mind if she started taking the occasional bottle with Mark in the afternoons or on the weekend so I can have more time to get things done, or even run to the store without thinking there could be a hysterical baby waiting for me when I get home. 2. Sleeping. Ah yes that cursed word when it comes to a newborn. I realize at 5 weeks she is too young to expect much in the sleeping department, but last night she decided to have another one of her marathon-I'm-going-to-be-awake-from-2-until-4-am nights. If she wants to wake up every two hours fine, but I don't know how I will possibly be able to teach if I am awake 2-4 with her. So today began keeping her awake as much as possible, and not letting her take any of her 4 hour naps which I relish (because I take them with her). Ironically in order to insure she takes short naps I just put her to sleep in her bassinet, where she sleeps for 30min tops.
The problem is that these two goals conflict with each other. If she is aWake a lot during the day, then she wants to be held and interacted with which leaves me little time to pump. Hopefully we will get it all figured out soon.